Monday, June 14, 2010
Did I really forget to post Christmas pictures?
DANIKA OPENING HER PRESENTS ON CHRISTMAS MORNING
DESPITE HER PERFECT HAIRDO, IT REALLY IS LIKE 6AM, I MADE HER LET ME BRUSH HER HAIR SO SHE DIDN'T LOOK LIKE A WILD CHILD
DANIKA AND HER BFF EVA GETTING READY TO MAKE COOKIES FOR SANTA ON CHRISTMAS EVE
YES, WE CHEATED AND USED PREMADE DOUGH. NEXT YEAR WE WILL TRY IT FROM SCRATCH. MAYBE. :)
BFF'S ON CHRISTMAS EVE. NOTHING IS SWEETER THAN TWO LITTLE GIRS OPENING GIFTS TOGETHER ON CHRISTMAS EVE. IT WAS TRULY A BLESSING TO EXPERIENCE.To make a long story short
To make a long story short... wow where do I start? The last time I actually wrote something on this blog, and not just posted pictures, I was about to become a mommy for the first time. I was 21 and a newlywed. Since then, nothing has been as signifigant to write about as little Annalynn Noelle. I really feel the need to write about her and her mommy and daddy today.
Never in my life have I met a couple who more deserves the perfect family. The pure strength and love that you can feel between Ryan and Trisha is an inspiration to me as a wife. Trisha has to be the bravest Mommy I have ever met. It is one thing to be a good Mommy when you have an easy pregnancy and a perfect healthy baby. It is quite another to be a good Mommy knowing you will have to say goodbye. In these last couple of days, we had to say good bye to their beautiful precious PERFECT daughter Annalynn Noelle. No couple deserves to have a baby more then the two of them. They aren't just some young couple that decided to get married and play house. They did everything that god, and society as a whole, says is the "way" to do things. They got married before they got pregnant. They owned a home to welcome the baby into. They both have great jobs and educations. They have a stable love for eachother and they are definilty in it together for the long run. Just to have the opportunity to be in their presence when they spent their last hours with their daughter, as a family, has inspired me, and Jeremy I know, as a couple and as parents.
I pride myself in being the best Mommy, 24 hours a day, seven days a week. I know I can honestly say I am the very best Mommy I can be ( even though I never say no to popsicles, and yes even pepsi) I'll bet you that Trisha would be able to. She is so strong. Just to be able to stand up and get dressed and bathe your daughter for the first and last time, takes an amount of strength that I will never posess. And Ryan, for him to be able to memorize stats and learn Annalynn's procedures and pass on info to those of us who were begging for any little bit of insight, any glimmer of hope, was incredible. Ryan personifies the word Daddy.
I hope with all my heart that they will be able to get pregnant again soon. I hope little Annalynn says okay Mommy and Daddy, sorry I just really wanted to be with Sunshine for forever, but you can have my brother or sister for the rest of your lives. And I know Annalynn's spirit will be in their next baby's heart. Everyday they will be blessed knowing that they have Annalynn close to them in spirit. They will always be Annalynn's Mommy and Daddy, and I know Annalynn was soo proud of her beautiful Mommy and how brave she was.
Even at the last minutes, she made sure Annalynn's hair was just perfect. I don't think I have ever even touched Danika as tenderly as Trisha touched Annalynn when she was putting her bows in. She will be such a good Mommy when God finally gives her the chance. I hope they never have one shadow of doubt that Annalynn's brother or sister will be perfect in everyway and just as beautiful as she, although Annalynn left the biggest, tiniest shoes to fill, because she was so beautiful and perfect and she brought our family together in a way that will change us forever. For that I am grateful, and I know that Annalynn's passing will not be in vain.
For Ryan and Trisha to love their baby more than they love themselves, and to make the kind of choices and sacrifices they made, is the ultimate gift a parent can give their child.
I wanted to mention, as sad an heartbreaking as it is, that I know Annalynn has visited Danika. We didn't tell Danika that Annalynn was dying, but when we got home from the hospital, before she had passed, Danika said to us : Sheigh ( she never calls me mommy, but that's a whole nother story) my baby dying. And we said yes Danika, your baby is dying, she is going to heaven with your brother or sister and your sunshine and Grandpa Allen and her brother or sister and everyone else that can't wait to kiss her face. Then we went to sleep. The next morning, Danika woke up at about 4:30am and turned over and looked at me and said, "Sheigh, my baby died." This broke my heart in a million peices, and put it back together all at once. I know Annalynn had visited her in her dreams, and I hope that she told her all about her family in heaven.
I plan on writing more about our lives and our families lives as the days go on. Today was a hard hard day to get up and get dressed and go to work knowing that this is the worst time of Ryan and Trisha's lives. I know God has a special plan for them, and they will be unbreakable. When the time comes, and hopefully it is soon, their new baby is going to be the luckiest baby in the world to be welcomed into their family, bc they will have all their love, and the love for Annalynn Noelle bestowed upon them as well.
Never in my life have I met a couple who more deserves the perfect family. The pure strength and love that you can feel between Ryan and Trisha is an inspiration to me as a wife. Trisha has to be the bravest Mommy I have ever met. It is one thing to be a good Mommy when you have an easy pregnancy and a perfect healthy baby. It is quite another to be a good Mommy knowing you will have to say goodbye. In these last couple of days, we had to say good bye to their beautiful precious PERFECT daughter Annalynn Noelle. No couple deserves to have a baby more then the two of them. They aren't just some young couple that decided to get married and play house. They did everything that god, and society as a whole, says is the "way" to do things. They got married before they got pregnant. They owned a home to welcome the baby into. They both have great jobs and educations. They have a stable love for eachother and they are definilty in it together for the long run. Just to have the opportunity to be in their presence when they spent their last hours with their daughter, as a family, has inspired me, and Jeremy I know, as a couple and as parents.
I pride myself in being the best Mommy, 24 hours a day, seven days a week. I know I can honestly say I am the very best Mommy I can be ( even though I never say no to popsicles, and yes even pepsi) I'll bet you that Trisha would be able to. She is so strong. Just to be able to stand up and get dressed and bathe your daughter for the first and last time, takes an amount of strength that I will never posess. And Ryan, for him to be able to memorize stats and learn Annalynn's procedures and pass on info to those of us who were begging for any little bit of insight, any glimmer of hope, was incredible. Ryan personifies the word Daddy.
I hope with all my heart that they will be able to get pregnant again soon. I hope little Annalynn says okay Mommy and Daddy, sorry I just really wanted to be with Sunshine for forever, but you can have my brother or sister for the rest of your lives. And I know Annalynn's spirit will be in their next baby's heart. Everyday they will be blessed knowing that they have Annalynn close to them in spirit. They will always be Annalynn's Mommy and Daddy, and I know Annalynn was soo proud of her beautiful Mommy and how brave she was.
Even at the last minutes, she made sure Annalynn's hair was just perfect. I don't think I have ever even touched Danika as tenderly as Trisha touched Annalynn when she was putting her bows in. She will be such a good Mommy when God finally gives her the chance. I hope they never have one shadow of doubt that Annalynn's brother or sister will be perfect in everyway and just as beautiful as she, although Annalynn left the biggest, tiniest shoes to fill, because she was so beautiful and perfect and she brought our family together in a way that will change us forever. For that I am grateful, and I know that Annalynn's passing will not be in vain.
For Ryan and Trisha to love their baby more than they love themselves, and to make the kind of choices and sacrifices they made, is the ultimate gift a parent can give their child.
I wanted to mention, as sad an heartbreaking as it is, that I know Annalynn has visited Danika. We didn't tell Danika that Annalynn was dying, but when we got home from the hospital, before she had passed, Danika said to us : Sheigh ( she never calls me mommy, but that's a whole nother story) my baby dying. And we said yes Danika, your baby is dying, she is going to heaven with your brother or sister and your sunshine and Grandpa Allen and her brother or sister and everyone else that can't wait to kiss her face. Then we went to sleep. The next morning, Danika woke up at about 4:30am and turned over and looked at me and said, "Sheigh, my baby died." This broke my heart in a million peices, and put it back together all at once. I know Annalynn had visited her in her dreams, and I hope that she told her all about her family in heaven.
I plan on writing more about our lives and our families lives as the days go on. Today was a hard hard day to get up and get dressed and go to work knowing that this is the worst time of Ryan and Trisha's lives. I know God has a special plan for them, and they will be unbreakable. When the time comes, and hopefully it is soon, their new baby is going to be the luckiest baby in the world to be welcomed into their family, bc they will have all their love, and the love for Annalynn Noelle bestowed upon them as well.
A new day
So today I decided, with all thats been going on with our family ( our big huuge family) that it would be highly theraputic to start writing on my blog. The past couple of months I have read countless blogs and they have been very helpful, both emotionally and educationally.
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